Monday, November 3, 2008

Who Am I?

After reading someone's blog today out in blogworld.... I began to question who I am....

I think this is something I've been thinking a lot about subconsciously lately.. because quite frankly I feel like I don't have the time to think about it right now.

I'm a 22 year old girl who is still trying to figure out who I am.... is that okay? Should I know this already? I feel as though in most aspects of my life I'm pretty confident in who I am... but the more I thought about this just a few minutes ago.... I'm really not entirely certain of who I am. I guess it's because in this part of my life right now I don't feel settled. I feel as though I'm just here in a place that I know I'm not going to be forever. I can't feel as though I'm settled. I want with all I am to be settled. I am ready for that establishment in my life. I feel ready at least.

Sorry for the rambling... I'm still pondering on all this... maybe I'm just emotional right now. I'm not sure... what to think really.

Nursing school is so hard... it's hard to find time for yourself. I would love to have a day right now to just do what I want and not feel guilty about it.

It's so hard being 10 hours away from Matt. I know that people do it all the time.. the long distance relationship that is... but it's not easy at all.. I think it's easier due to the fact that we've been together for almost 3 years but it's definitely not an easy thing.

This is just all the stuff I've been thinking about thrown into a big pot of craziness...

sorry for the rambling and all the "who am I?" blah blah blah.... but just needed to get it out there...

1 comment:

wishcake said...

First of all, thanks for the sweet comment on my post! I really means alot. :)

Second of all, from what I've discovered this far in life, it seems that I am constantly learning more about myself. For me, just when I feel like I have a firm grasp on who I am, something changes, or something new is discovered. I'm learning to find some sort of joy in the fact that life is about constant discovery, you know? It sounds a wee bit cheesy, but it's true.

Being twenty-two and not having it all figured out is certainly not a bad thing. If you said you had it all figured out, I wouldn't believe you anyway. Heehee. :)

When you wrote: "I want with all I am to be settled" - I totally can understand that. Even where I am now? I don't feel like this is "it". Like this is where I'm going to end up. But...I guess that's what keeps me looking forward to what is yet to come!

Best of luck to you, my dear! You are doing just fine. :)